Soundwave was so fucking great holy shit Dillinger Esc Plan completely 110% made it worth the wait. Second time seeing the gods themselves and they bloody ruled even harder than the first
ok so yeah time to rant be prepared
It’s annoying me so much because as of late, i’ve been bloody irritating myself with how little motivation I have for anything. I can’t piece anything together and I feel as if I could be doing so much better with life in general but I’m so focused on making sure that I’m not alone 90% of the time that its sucked away all my life.
I could have a band right now, I mean, i’m writing some music that I thoroughly enjoy, but including myself, there’s just all talk and no action on anything. I should be looking for more internships for writing but I work so much at my job trying to sustain a decent lifestyle that nothing ever works.
On top of all of this, despite me being constantly surrounded with people, I feel lonely all the time and it’s wrecking me. I have no motivation to go to gym, barely any to get out of bed and all that’s left is wasted on socialising.
I’ve reached the bottom of a really horrible hole and I really do need to dig myself out of it before I become somebody who never achieves anything in life other than aspiring to be everything I don’t have the effort to be.